An overdue update....

I have come to realise since I have stopped posting and recording my food in my food diary I have dropped the ball a little. While I go to my strength sessions I have been skipping group and not doing my ICE at home. I have had many reasons for not going to group but aside from my work excuses none of them were really justified. 
I'm not proud of dropping the ball and I'm thankful that I havent seemed to have put anything on. After DRok asked me about my ICE on Tuesday I have been really thinking about things and have come to realise that I have let a negative attitude get the better of me.
A lot has been going on. We've left MP studio as DRok has decided to go out on his own and presently we are training at a studio which houses the old training company where I began training (just a different location).  It's closer to work and I am back doing the leg press (I did 170 kilos on Thursday :)) but I'm still getting used to not seeing Rach, Lukey and the MP crew. They are frienmily to me and I really enjoyed the atmosphere there. I do go back for the occasional boxing session though which I really enjoy. I am happy to be training at the same location as Satisha again (even though we never train at the same times) and it's nice to see the guys again (even though I have yet to see Sean..) It takes me awhile to enjoy a change in routine. DH has also decided to put in for a corps transfer. This means he will be going to Albury for 18 months. I have decided not to go with him and to try and get a relocation back home to be near family. While I have been blessed to have such wonderful friends and frienmily here in Brisbane, I have thought this through and have decided that being home near family is what would be best for me. I'm tired of always being alone (even though I know it is part of the lifestyle and I know that others have it harder then me) and I just want to go home. I feel it would also help with my mental health (which hasn't been too bad but recently I have been having minor meltdowns.) I haven't really said much about it until now as when I have sought advice and help I have been judged rather harshly and been attacked for my choices. So if you have issue with my decision I respect your right to an opinion but I would appreciate it if you kept it to yourself. It's not like I'm doing this without putting a  lot of thought into it and while I may come across as confident in everything I do have my worries. 
Anyway.... What else has happened in the last 3 months? Work has been good. I am really enjoying working with my group leader and my class are just awesome. I absolutely love them! My nutrition has been up and down but that's ok because I'm human. I achieved my first goal of my list of goals to achieve for this year! I ran the 8km Mother's Day Classic in 1:02. Granted I was 2 minutes over my goal time but I had to stop to go to the toilet so I'm taking 5 minutes off... :) I'm actually really proud of how I did. Within the  first 2 kilometres I was freaking out and seriously doubting myself. I was terrified that I was going to injure my ankle again and that I wasn't ready. When I hit the 2km mark I thought to myself 'You're a quarter of the way through this. You can run 10km in 79 minutes you can do this....' and it was like a fire had been lit under my butt.. Whenever I felt like giving up I said to myself  'come on Ness you can do this... you can do this Ness!' over and over... I did get a few odd looks (I was saying it out loud to myself) but to be honest I didnt care. In the last kilometre it had started to drizzle and in the last 50 metres a song that I first heard in Foot Locker in Waikiki came on my ipod and just like that I was back there on the only drizzly day during my trip. In my mind I wasn't running in Brisbane I was walking across the main street of Waikiki and I swear I could smell the beach and the beautiful smells I have come to associate with Hawaii... The song finished and the next thing I knew I was racing two older ladies to cross the finish line. And my ankle was fine!!! It was really awesome to cross that finish line and see the faces of Rach and DH standing amongst the crowd waiting for me... DH had even bought me a banana which had been injected with Dark Chocolate... What a way to finish a run!! :)
Training has been ok.. I'm feeling a little unorganised and out of sync with things which I think is one of the reasons I've dropped the ball. I feel like I'm not working towards anything specific at the moment as we are not doing a 12 week challenge. We took measurements the week before last but I have no idea what the differences are between that and the last lot of measurements.. I'm pretty sure there hasn't been any gains though which is the main thing :)
I don't know if I posted the goals here but I'm going to now so I can come back and see them... This is the original status I put up:

Complete the 10k run in the Twilight run in March (anyone want to join me??) in under 80 minutes
Complete the medium or short course of triathlon pink in April (I'm still undecided)
Complete the 8km Mothers day classic in under 60 minutes
Complete the City to Surf in August (I really am not fussed about my time.. Who would like to join me?)
Complete the 10km Bridge to Brisbane smashing last years time of 79 minutes.
Anyone want to join me in any of these let me know!!!
I would also like to say drop down to 20% body fat ( at least), be able to bench 60 kilos, get back on a leg press and do 220 kilos, deadlift some awesome weight and be able to do 5 chinups in a row....
 Obviously the first two were unachievable due to my ankle injury (which is doing really well! I have had a few hiccups but nothing too drastic). I'm going to start training for the city to surf this week. I want to focus on distance and then if I have time work on speed. I'm not too fussed on time just really want to cross that finish line in one piece :) My best friend Peta is running it with me and is currently running 4:25 minute kms... Don't think I'll be doing that pace lol!
I went home without DH for a quick weekend nearly a month ago. My cousin Lloyd finally married his beautiful other half Kat and it was an absolute joy to share their special day with them. I have never cried at a wedding (not even my own) until that day... It was absolutely beautiful. Cold but beautiful. Kat looked absolutely gorgeous and Lloyd couldnt have had a bigger smile if he tried. I also enjoyed catching up with family despite my brother J being a bit of a poohead and really hurting my feelings... But that's what brothers do I guess...
Next weekend we are going to Newcastle for our niece's christening. It will be nice to attend a family function with DH for a change, although there is no way he couldve missed this he is one of the god fathers... :) I'm really looking forward to spending time with my in laws, spending quality time with them especially my niece!!! She has grown so much since the last time we saw her and she is just soooooooooooooo adorable !DH and I just absolutely love her so much! I'm also looking forward to catching up with Sez. She's been so busy with work and her new house that we haven't really spoken in over a month. Yet another reason t add to the many for my decision to move back to Sydney. I'm packing my training gear and am hoping to get a decent run in while we are there. Here's hoping I dont get chased by evil poodles or scary birds... hahaha. 
I'm going to leave this here but I will post again soon.  Peace out rabbits! :)