Two in one week!

Wow!!!! Big thank you to every single one of you for your comments, messages, emails and wall posts!! I'm completely amazed and so grateful for your support and encouragement! Seriously thank you so much!!! You have no idea how much it means to me! Reading your kind and encouraging words really inspires and motivates me to keep on moving on!!


I have final measurements from the MP 12 week body transformation on Friday... I'm nervous as all hell... The last time I went for a DEXA scan my self esteem and belief in myself was not only torn to shreds it was chewed up and spat on...  
so why am I nervous? I have lost something in the last 6 weeks...It's obvious I have from the clothes and body change. Well last time it was only 9 cms all over my body... Granted I wasn't as good and didn't put as much effort into it as I have over the last 6 weeks but my biggest fear is not getting a massive result from all the hard work... What if I am not going hard enough????
I have just under 12 weeks until Hawaii and I was also told by my Dearest Husband that he would walk right past me at the airport if I wasnt as hot as I say I'm going to be.. (Im pretty sure he was joking but it still kinda hurt..) Regardless of what the scanner, tape measure and scales say though a loss is a loss and this is only just going to motivate me to work even harder. I'm not going to give up on my goals and dreams... I have worked waaaay too hard to just quit (and I dont think my trainer would let me)
'Focus on the results you wont see the changes. Focus on the changes and you will see the results.' This was on the quote board at Prestige Lifestyles (the studio where I train. If you live in Brisbane and are looking to change your life  www.prestigelifestyles.com.au give these guys a call... Best thing I ever did was win my bid on 6 sessions with David and kept going from there.) so instead of focusing on the results, everytime I start to freak about the upcoming scan I think of what I see in the mirror, how much it has changed in the last 5 months. I think of how I can now get on and do up my american size 9 Baby Phat 3/4 pants that I havent been able to fit into for at least two years.. Not much longer and I'll be able to wear them with a top that doesnt hide the muffin top LOL. I can fit into my size 11 3/4 pants comfortably and am even starting to fit into other clothes I was going to give away... I know I can do this, not only because I can do it but because I have so much love and support how on earth could I not? :)
 My goals for the next body transformation challenge is to be able to bench press 40 kilos, leg press 200 kilos, go over 15 kilos for the single dumbbell thingamajig  and to add another 10 kilos to the current weight I do when I do squats 9I cant remember where I'm up to).. I also want to smash another 6-10 kilos of body fat and to get the saggy wobbly part of my arm to disappear. I'm sure I had more but there are so many I forgot them! LOL (D-Rock if you are reading this please feel free to remind me)
My biggest goal is to be on the beach in a bikini when I go to Hawaii in July... While I'm sure my mother will be running after me trying to cover me up even if its just boards shorts with a bikini top I'll be happy.. or even a tankini... 
Having a two week break before starting the next transformation so yesterdays session was a Fat blasting ICE session... Well thats what D-Rok calls it, I call it an attempt to kill Vanessa by heart attack session.. haha... Honestly it was awesome and while I gave it 100% with the little energy I had I think I couldve done better... being up since 4am didnt exactly help but I am going to use that as a base to work off... The only way is up isnt it? Tomorrow is group training with Isaac which should be interesting. I enjoyed the one and only group session I had with Isaac ages ago so it should be fun but I will definately miss Chopper... Fingers crossed I'm not doing hill sprints cause that shit be crazy after a long day at work! 
Anyways I best be getting my stuff together for work and training tomorrow, feeding my furbabies and getting some sleep... Hope you all have an amazing night and I will post photos and results on Sunday!!!