I know I know, I have been extremely slack... Suffice to say that life has been rather busy and to be honest I haven't really had much to write about...
Christmas was amazing. I got to have my husband home and we went to Sydney... I had an absolute blast hanging with my awesome family and chilling with my not so little bro... My darling heart is now taller then me and is being a typical teenage boy... BOO!!!!! Being home made me feel centered and very content.. It shattered me to leave them even though I am very happy with my life here in Brissy.
So what's been happening in Brissy??? I've been busy working and training.. Training is going really well (I think) and I have managed to lose 34.5 cm in total since starting in Oct. While I'm still not happy with my reflection in the mirror at least these days I'm not as disgusted as I used to be... I have a very long way to go and alot of self esteem to rebuild... Only problem is everytime I get some sort of pride in myself someone comes along and shatters it into a million pieces... I know I shouldnt let them bother me but never in my whole life have I been made to feel so horrible by both strangers and people who I am close to.... (Actually I lie, a 6 1/2 year violent relationship made me feel worse but you get what I mean... Back then I was 45 kilos and absolutely gorgeous. I wore a size 6-8 and could stroll down the beach in my roxy bikini... But that's another story for another time...)
On a more positive note last weekend I went to DFO with my parents... In Forever
New they had this dress that I saw in the window of the Chermside store when I first started training and vowed to make it into a size 10. Well.... I have gone from not being able to fit into their dresses to not being able to zip up the top of a size 12 because my boobs are too big. First time in my life this have EVER happened! It probably doesnt seem like a big deal but to me it means alot. I nearly cried my eyes out in the dressing room from the pride and happiness I had.. Seems kinda silly, most girls usually cry out of sadness when they can't do the zip up to the top but I have made ALOT of changes and have tried really hard... I am now doing stuff I never EVER pictured myself doing after doing my stupid neck injury... Just goes to show that with faith, persistance and determination you CAN prove the Doctor wrong... Even a highly paid Surgeon...
My '25'th (thats my story and I'm sticking to it) is approaching rather quickly. I'm so excited as I'm heading home 5 days before to help celebrate my Mum's 50th. It's a pretty big deal as the whole family will be there and I will get to meet my Granddads future wife. So it's all very exciting. I'll also have both my babies there. I cant believe they are both 15 now... Mini me has a job and while she isnt looking so much like me as she used to she's a smart ass just like me :D Might have to look into investing in a shotgun soon.. The first girl R brings home I pity... As it's me she's going to have to worry about LOL and as for mini me.... Her poor first BF.. Not only is he going to have to worry about me, he'll have J on his case too LOL. I can understand why parents see their children as their babies no matter how old they are.
Anyway back to my birthday weekend home... I fly home on the Thursday morning and will be spending the day with Mum.. Hopefully will be getting my hair coloured and cut too. Friday is Mum's birthday so we're going to high tea in the city somewhere with Mum's friends. I'm looking forward to it as they are like family and I really enjoy their company. (Does this make me a weirdo because I love being around my mum and her friends??) Saturday will see us at the Harry Potter Exhibition (legen.............. wait for it...................... dary!) and Mum's birthday party that night. I have no idea what else is happening but I will be flying back on the Monday night as my birthday will be a very big day for me. I'm also going to be having a session that evening (depending on the events of the day).. Then back to work and life until June for a weekend home and then my trip to HAWAII!!! I'm rather excited about spending my first overseas trip in such a beautiful place and celebrating July 4th there...
Well I'm off before I go onto a whole new tangent... Note to self... Next time dont blog on little sleep...
I am going to resolve to blog everyday or if not at least once or twice a week.... Ciao for now!
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