New goals

So I've been thinking really hard about my new goal.  To be 100% honest, I'm a little frightened of how high I'm aiming. It's a massive change and will require A LOT of work.. I wasn't going to post the picture up here but I figure what have I really got to lose? I've already publicly missed a goal and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Ok so I feel like a massive idiot and am a little worried that people were laughing or talking behind my back but you know what? If they were they obviously arent people whose opinions would really matter to me anyway. So here goes:

I got this picture from one of the many fitness pages I like on Facebook. While I'm not sure about being as muscly as this I do want something along the lines of this. It's going to be frikking AWESOME to look in the mirror and see my dream instead of what I see now. I've given myself a longer period of time to work on this as it is going to be a massive change. I'm a little frightened of the reaction I'm going to get when DH and the family see this. It's going to be interesting that's for sure... Not that my family aren't supportive, my family especially my parents have been amazing cheerleaders and have been in my corner from day one. My dramatic change in diet never ceases to amaze them and everytime I talk to my Mum about how my sessions are going I hear the pride in her voice. They just worry that I'm going to turn into this big muscly Arnie looking chick LOL.. I'm pretty sure that wont EVER happen lol.

So how am I going on the beginning of the journey to my new goal? Um I'm not sure.. I'm not feeling too comfortable about not doing strength training and I'm totally freaking out about not shedding enough fat during this acceleration period. I haven't been feeling too crash hot the last few days (although I'm feeling alot better now) and my meals have dropped to 3-5 over the weekend.I think it's also because I've been on the go doing housework etc.. Add to that the crap my husband has been bringing into the house. While I've been pretty good it's just really hard. I worry that I may eat something awful at night (I have issues with eating in my sleep.)  The worry and stress aren't going to help me though so I'm just trying to relax and go with it. I'm not supposed to be aiming for 100% compliance (thank god as I would totally fail!) and while I dont have to send my food diary ot my trainer anymore I'm still recording it so I can keep track. I should be doing a DEXA scan soon and I am absolutely dreading it. Not because it's an awful nasty thing to go through it's just  with measurements I always expect more then I get and with all the hard work and focus I have put in it would crush me not to get big numbers..  I guess I just have to breathe in, breathe out and accept what the numbers may be. I'd be lying though if I said I haven't thought of surgery but thats just a quick fix... And it's too painful and yukky. 
Tomorrow is the beginning of a new week and I am going to make it an amazing one. I'm only allowed 4 ICE sessions so I have two with D one with Sean and the Saturday group with Jazza. The results I get will be from the effort I put in so if you don't hear from me it's because I've killed myself from the effort.. LOL just kidding.


I've had a few friends ask me questions about my diet and workout etc and while I'm happy to tell you what I do I'm not a fitness professional and what works for me may not always work for someone else... If you have any questions at all go to www.fitterhealthierstronger.com and email D-Rok your questions...  He obviously knows his stuff look how far I've come....

Anyway I best be off. Got to finish washing up the dishes from my pre cook and get my gear ready for tomorrow. Have a great week everyone!