I've been down this road before...

Well it's been a hell of a ride since my last post.
I wrote down my meals for the last two days and I am shocked at how my meal frequency has dropped! Snap point. Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to make the change I need.
Right now I am in shock at how far I have let myself slide and all I can say to myself is "What the f**k?"
I haven't gained too much weight. My clothes still fit but I don't feel as good as I used to. These days I feel flabby and to be honest I am unmotivated. What happened to the girl who woke up at 5am and had no problem dragging her butt out of bed to go for a run on 5 hours sleep? I haven't been for a run since Sydney. when I ask myself why I just keep coming up with excuses like "I need my sleep" "I don't have time" "It's too dark". In the end though, are those excuses REALLY going to get me closer to my goals?
So what's my game plan?
I HAVE to stick to the timetable I made up in my last post. To make sure it doesn't slip from my mind, I am going to write it up on my calender (which I am putting up as soon as I finish this) and stick to it. This long weekend I am going to get the house organised to where I want it to be so that the only thing I have to do is maintain it. I find housework is one of my BIG excuses for letting my training slide. I am going to utilise my meal planner and plan my meals for the week ahead. I am going to turn the TV and laptop off half an hour before bed so that I can organise my liquid and solid meals for the next day. 
My time management needs to come together so I am going to schedule as much as I can. Work, training, study, housework and REST time. Thank goodness it's a long weekend! I'm going to need a chunk of time to organise all of this! 
I am going to try and get measurements and some progress photos to start this off too. 
Training wise. I have been doing my FIRE sessions which is good. I have been working on my form and really enjoying doing my Upper body sessions again. I would love to have a training buddy to spot me for the upper body though, as I find I freak out when I go to bench heavy on my own. In the gym where I train there is nothing for me to drop the barbell on if I can't lift it back up which freaks me out. If someone is spotting me I would feel more confident. But that's a bridge I will cross when I get to it. For now I am doing well training solo. I have started using the leg press again which I absolutely LOVE! I am focusing on stretching more so that my flexibility is back up and that I can lift heavier. I am looking at breaking my leg press record that I set during my last session with DRok... It was 261 for 6/6. Today I did 140 with 2 sets of 12 which I am really pleased with. :)
Mentally, I have been in a weird headspace... I have had a few issues with people and even ended a very close friendship. My biggest regret was being spiteful after the argument. But what is done is done and I have left it as a closed chapter where it belongs. Sometimes you have to go through hurtful and terrible situations to get through to the bright side... The rainbow always comes after the rain doesn't it? I have been trying really hard to remind myself of that but today it just didn't work for me... My mind went a little dark for a moment so I forced myself to go to the gym rather than go home and wallow. For now it seems to have worked..
I best be off to get started in this new game plan! I will update again this week with my progress :)