Anyway all things aside I made it through another week and did pretty well with my food with the exception of a tiny slice of chocolate cake. Yes I had chocolate cake. Delicious gluten free chocolate cake... As much as I enjoyed it I was so overcome with guilt I seriously considered sticking my fingers down my throat and throwing it up. Fortunately I caught myself and mentally slapped myself in the head.. It's easy to stick your fingers down your throat and purge yourself but in the end not only are you ruining the hard work you're putting everything into but you're taking the easy quick fix solution and since when has that been either healthy or successful? Then there's the fact that it's a bulimic tendency and that is so not my thing at all... The reason I am sharing this (which is extremely hard for me, I'm not proud of my moment of stupidity) is that there is a fine line between dedication and crazy obsession. I have 3 weeks and 3 days until I fly out to Hawaii and I am putting a ridiculous amount of pressure on myself to get into that bikini. I am putting everything I can into my training and my food (although this week I havent gotten in as many meals as I normally do). I am aiming to get 100% compliance which isnt as easy as I thought it would be. I have hit 100 once this cycle but have mainly been in the 80's.In the quest to hit that 100% I am forgetting that the important part of life is to LIVE!!! I'm not going to be '25' forever (although I plan on it for atleast another year LOL) so where is the harm in a little slice of chocolate cake or a lovely Wild Turkey American Honey and coke Zero? As long as it's an occasional thing and I'm consistent where is the harm in enjoying it? I don't want to be 80 years old looking back on my life and regretting all the things I missed just because I was obsessed with getting into that bikini. So the chocolate cake stayed and is on my food file which I have to finish completing and send to D-Rok. Fingers crossed I can at least hit 90% as I got 94.2 last week....
Training this week has been good. Legs went well, boxing this week nearly killed me, I started attending a group circuit session which was awesome and I went up on weights for chest. I can now bench press 32 kilos!!!! WINNING!!!! :D My back session was good. For the second week in a row I did chin ups.Yes I do chin ups now! Still need to work on my form but I'm secretly (well now not so secretly) pleased that I can do them even though they are insanely hard! Saturday's ICE session with the Iceman was awesome as always and I am starting to enjoy those hill sprints... I did 4 (I think?) and ran all the way up for 3 of them. The last one my legs were screaming for mercy and I stopped just shy of the top. I'm not looking forward to missing next Saturdays ICE session but I will be substituting it with running up a massive hill near my Mums house and around the suburb where she lives. So should any of my friends in the area see me running around GP feel free to wait for me at the Gloria Jeans at the shops, no doubt I'll be hammered by then and may need to stop for water LOL...
Week 8 starts tomorrow and I am looking forward to kicking it's ass! I can't believe I'm so close to the finish line... There's a group circuit at 6:30 in the morning that normally I cant attend due to work but I dont know if I can make it due to public holiday timetable so I might just go for a run around my suburb in the morning. I love running. I'm absolutely shit at it but when I run I feel free. I put my ipod on and just lose myself to the music. I seem to find alot of solutions when I run, it's like it clears my mind and helps me put it all into perspective.. I've also got to start training for the Bridge to Brisbane. The Iceman has promised me that he's doing the 10k so I dont want to die or go through the pain I did for the Mothers Day classic..
This week I am also going home for the weekend. My Granddad is getting married so I am putting on my beautiful Diana Ferrari dress that I bought today and getting fully dolled up for it.. I'll post pictures when I get back :)
Week after next I am going to start looking at bikinis for Hawaii... I'm totally freaking out. Today's experience of trying on dresses has made me a little nervous but I'm going to go for it. “Move out of your comfort zone. You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new.” and I dont think it can get any worse then trying on clothes that were obviously designed for stick people. Seriously when are these clothes designers going to realise that not all women are stick thin with no shape or boobs??? Cant wait to go to Hawaii and go shopping there! Will be nice to get into a dress that my boobs will fit into or that my arms can fit through (seriously THEY ARENT THAT BIG!!). Will post photos if I'm feeling brave. For now I will post two photos that give me the WOW factor... The first picture was taken in September 2011 at a fairy party. This was before I started my life changing MP journey with D-Rok and the amazing people at Prestige Lifestyles.
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