Measurements today. No DEXA (thank god, as accurate as it is I still hate the bloody thing) just tape measure.
As wonderful as D-Rok is when it comes to measurements (I do put up a bit of an arguement) I still dont feel as good as I should. Today I found out that in the last 5 weeks and I have lost 9cms all over my body bring the total up to 53.5cm since Oct. Now that is an awesome achievement but if I'm completely honest part of me feels like it's not good enough. I have worked my ass off, changed my eating habits and have pushed myself beyond what I have ever been to try and reach my goal and I feel like I'm just not doing enough.
now I know that I will eventually look back on this and think to myself "You crazy bitch are you INSANE!?!?!" but this is what I'm thinking now so dont judge me too harshly. It isnt easy to see how the things you have done have changed you dramatically when you compare yourself to others who get massive weight loss especially with 5 weeks left until I need to hit my goal.... Granted they're going for the first easy and quick fix but when the scales are the same for 3 rounds you start to wonder if scales are actually even worth it... (Which they aren't. In my opinion scales are useless pieces of crap that dont account muscle gain or even weight of muscle. So whats the point? This is why I do the DEXA)
This does not mean I give up! F**k that why come so far and work so hard just to give up? This little black duck doesnt give up (well anything thats good for me anyway).. Like Dory says "Just keep swimming swimming swimming" so swim I'm going to. I'm going to swim so fast Thorpedo will nothing in comparison! There is nothing I want more then to stroll down Waikiki beach in a bikini with a sexy hot bod!!! My food has been really good with my compliance for the first 3 weeks being 80-85% Week 4 and 5 were 90-100% (Dont bother asking cause I'm not telling. I will say that i am extremely proud!)
Anyway enough measurement talk, Friday I had an awesome back session with D-Rok. He had me doing this exercise that will eventually lead into me doing actual chin-ups! So that is on the list of many awesome things I want to be able to do. I think Back sessions would have to be my favourite after Legs although I like all of the back exercises, with legs I absolutely detest the stupid split squats (which I had an interesting lot this evening)
Saturday was an ICE session with the Iceman. Absolutely INTENSE!!! Absolutely loved the boxing although I wouldve loved to have belted him everytime he made me do that goddamn stair run. We finished up with some shuttle runs, sling shot (which was absolutely AWESOME!!! So much fun!) and hill sprints. By the end of it my heart rate was insanely high and my legs were over running.
Sunday was 'rest' day and by 'rest' I mean Less Intense Activity. I walked about half an hour to the shops and did my grocery shopping during which I received a phone call from DH. He's doing well and thriving, I cant believe today has been exactly three months since he left. I am so proud of both of us, him for being there and me for getting through it despite the attacks and lack of support from 'family' (and I use that term extremely loosely)
Today I started off Week 6 with an absolutely smashing legs session! I am so proud of being able to do 30 kilo b/bell squats without too much trouble. I am also 50 kilos off my double leg press goal! It's all happening here!! Unfortunately during split squats I pushed too hard and the lack of sleep and low blood sugar got to me a tiny little bit. Thank god I have a high quality trainer who stopped me and made me an awesome shake to get me up and going.
Tomorrow will be boxing at Newstead with the lovely Linda, Here's hoping its not too cold!
Anyway I best be off, furkids to feed, lunches and uniforms to get ready.. I'll leave you with my update progress photos... Remember to just keep swimming!!!!
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